지금은..

마음이 설레이는 시간...

you only live once.

It's the heart afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking
That never takes the chance

It's the one who won't be taken,
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul afraid of dying
That never learns to live.

                                The Rose 中

...

i was afraid of breaking

and i was afraid of waking..

i was afraid of being taken

and i was afraid of dying.

but now

im going to live.

live my life.

왜 몰랐을까?

나를 사랑해주는 사람이 있다는 그 자체가 나를 행복하게 한다는걸...

i was in denial..

a new beginning.

as we move on in life, we learn from our mistakes,

and every little event..good or bad

we can always learn from our experiences.

we need to make realisations

which lead to improvements in ourselves.

im becoming a better person day by day, i can feel it.

As Aldous Huxley once said,

There is only one corner of the universe you can be certain of improving, and that's your own self.

so, i am here once again

to find myself some solace.

... obviously speaking to myself..(but not as crazy as actually talking to myself out loud)

i dont know, maybe i am getting somewhat subconsciously stressed from these finals...mainly because this is probably the most unpreparedness ive ever experienced. i always tell myself, oh im gonna constantly study ..but i never end up doing it. why? does i not have enough self-control? or am i so god damn confident that i can just cram and whole semester's work in one day? ive never been so frustrated at my personality. yet, i love it how im still happy and content with life....if that makes any sense

my biggest challenge in life is that i get tempted easily. if i can conquer that, i can conquer anything.. so bring it on!

LOL

its not even past midnight and im getting deep

maybe its because ive been so apart from the outside world that im slowly losing it.

i havent seen anyone for ages, unless its just a hi and bye at the exams..when im just not me (because im so dead from cramming the night before)

and there are some people who i obviously miss more than others, and..well..i want to see them. because out of sight = out of mind and obviously i dont want to be out of their mind..hahha....i hope they miss me and much i as miss them! i hate one-sided loving ..like always

man, i hate not knowing whats going on. and that quite stupid because sometimes i dont even know what going on with myself, how can i possibly know whats going on in other people's lives.

...you only live once right?

gotta keep telling myself that. you can never turn back time, it just goes on and on, doesnt give shit what you're doing, so we have to make the most of it ourselves.

uhuh.

why cant life be simple.?

...cos it would be boring? indeed indeed.

..ok now im like answering my own questions

ok, lets get a bit superficial now

...ben cousins is so good-looking...too bad he's a fuckin crackhead

and i can not believe michael weatherly is nearly 40....and that he was engaged to jessica alba...!! the main reason NCIS is the best crime show on tv = michael weatherly

..SYTYCD final is on thursday! can not wait. neil is sex

hahahaha

i better go and get some rest. cant cram anymore..brain cells need a rest.

=)

good luck y'all